I I know that people always say it's not going to be weird, but it's hard when the emotions and every little feeling is still there, still inside you just wanting to come out. It's hard to just sit and do nothing when your insides are just ripping apart, normally this is where i'd turn to music to find my strength, but everytime i listen to a song, it makes me think about how alone i really am, and how lonely i've been and will be.