What's going on

I feel that I purpously make my life a lot more complicated then it has to be. Like everything is scary and crazy enough without me putting more on myself to do, like right things were going smoothly... well sort of and then I get asked to do something for someone, and of course I agree to do it and it ends up being a disaster leaving several parties mad at me. I don't really have much in my corner or anything or anyone to turn to in situations like this, I think the support was one of the things I was missing most in my last relationship, that and honesty, I was glad to get out of my last relationship, because I felt that I was consistantly being played for a fool, and even though it was she who pulled the trigger on the break first, I'm just glad to be out of it. Still, it's not like my friends are supportive of the things I do, most just shrug it off or pass on responsibilities on me, which is a complete load of bullshit.

Relationships.... bleh, I don't even want to start about badly that's going right now, like I feel that I can't compete with what people really want in relationships, or all the shallow little things that people like, great looks, great hair, body all that outer stuff that people stay transfixed on, instead of looking at personality and such. Thank god I have music to make things feel right.